Insecure (But Not So Insecure) Girls

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There are girls who are extremely insecure sometimes. However these types of girls are genuinely insecure that they try to hide and not really say anything about it. I don’t mind these types of girls. I believe everyone has their own insecurities from time to time. What I can’t stand is girls who used their insecurities for attention. I am pretty sure some of you had heard this kind of quotes before:

Attention Whore: I am so fat and ugly! Ugh! *Expects her friends to say “No, you’re not! You are very skinny and pretty!*

One of my friends is fat and she loves saying these types of things. It makes me feel awkward at times because I don’t know how to continue the conversation once she start bringing up that she is fat or ugly. To be honest, it makes me feel uncomfortable. I can’t say, “No, you are not fat! You are very skinny!” because I’ll be lying. Plus, I hate entertaining girls like this. Sometimes, I tired to boost up her confidence by saying things like, “Maybe we can go to the gym together! Lets lose weight!” or “Self-confidence is hot. I think this is more important to have confidence than physical beauty”. But it just doesn’t work since she will continue throwing a pity party. It seems to me that they are seeking attention and expect me to say something nice in return.

Ren: Ah, yes. Don’t worry about getting a boyfriend. There is no need to rush actually.
Attention Whore: Yeah, of course you have nothing to worry about. You’re skinny but I am so fat that they won’t even look at me and I am not that pretty.
Ren: … *feels really awkward*

She does this quite frequently and it makes me feel awkward since I don’t know what to say. She did this to some other friends and some of them said things like, “No! You’re not fat!” or “I saw pictures when you were younger! You look so hot!“. And the attention whore would smile and say, “Really? Thank you!“.

I have a habit of saying, “I know, right?” when I am having a conversation with my friends. It sorts of acts like a reflex, especially when I agree with my friend with what she is saying. For example,

Friend: I think the Ruby on Rails framework is just dead sexy. Makes it really fast to create an app straight away. It does all the dirty work for you!
Ren: I know, right?!

Sometimes, my “I know, right?” reflexes made me sound really mean:

Attention Whore: I am so fat and not that pretty. So it is hard for me to get a boyfriend.
Ren: I know, right?!
Attention Whore: *gives Ren a dirty look*
Ren: Uh..umm..I..I didn’t mean…you’re not…uh…I..I need to go to the bathroom.

I just wish she would stop saying those kinds of things because it made me feel really awkward. Usually, I just keep quiet or I just change the subject. I wouldn’t entertain her by lying; if she really worries about her weight, she should do something about it. Put some effort and actually go to the gym. Throwing a pity party will not get you anywhere and it is a waste of time.

I do have acquaintances who are slim and lean but likes to say that they are fat just to fish for compliments.

Skinny Bitch: I am so fat and I think I need to lose weight!
Another Girl: No! You are very skinny and pretty!
Skinny Bitch: Nah, I am not.
Another Girl: You are pretty!
Skinny Bitch: Really? Thank you!

So annoying. The reason why I sometimes can’t stand girls. I have a lot of girlfriends; we hang out and chill together. But most of them are bright and intelligent. They are confident in their own skin and don’t really throw a pity party or try to fish for compliments. I am happy that I made friends with these girls.

New Interest: Developing Mobile Applications

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Last semester, I had to learn how to develop an Android application. So, I visit the Android Application Developer’s Guide to check some simple tutorials. After trying out all of the tutorials on the website, I was able to develop a simple Twitter client that pulls tweets about Android. It was pretty interesting how I would learn something really fast. Developing for Android is easy since I had experience with Java programming language. Therefore, I was able to learn really fast.

I sort of stop learning once the winter break starts since I was busy improving both my knowledge on PHP/MySQL and Ruby on Rails. Plus, I am planning to write a script using PHP, I need to learn more about security. I bet I had forgotten how to develop a simple Android app.

Earlier this month, I upgraded my iPad to iOS5. They had a new app called iTunes U. I found great free courses in there and one of them is on how to develop an iPad application. There are two courses available; one is released by Stanford and another is by Carnegie Mellon. I gave one of the courses a shot and tried to learn the basics even though I had no prior experience in the C programming language.

So far, developing an iPad app seems easier than Android. You can develop a simple app for the iPad without writing a single line of code at all. If you are a Mac user, you can use XCODE to create a simple app. So far, it seems like a WYSIWYG editor. You can type “hello world” on your story board and it will show up on the emulator. Currently, I am learning how to create a calculator. Baby stuff. :P

If those of you who are wondering, I downloaded the Stanford’s iPad app course. It is free and it is available on iTunes U. So far, it is really easy to follow and very interesting. Apparently, iPad application development followed the MVC architecture. I have experience with MVC architecture since I work with Ruby on Rails; this framework uses the MVC architecture too.

I am not sure how complex developing an iPad application could be. I am still on the second episode; so maybe it seems easy now since we are just learning the basics. It might be hard soon.

I received an email from an alumni recently. He is giving me the opportunity to work with him on an Android application. I am very interested since I want to learn more. We’ll see how that goes.

I had a lot of experience on developing a web application. I develop not just for school but also for internships and also for my personal blog. I would love to try something different now; a mobile application would seem like an interesting one to learn.

Any of you have experience on developing an Android or an iPad/iPhone application?

It is Hard to Ignore…

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…boobs when it is dangling in front of your face. Sometimes it could be very distracting especially if the girl has a huge crucifix in the middle of her cleavage. I find this ironic but you can’t really judge a person from his or her crucifix. Some people wear crucifix necklace because it can look pretty fashionable.

So this woman came to me for help. She was wearing this low cut shirt that shows half of her boobs popping out. Sometimes I wonder, why don’t you just wear nipple pasties to school if you really want to show people your boobs? It is the same thing, right? If you want to show something, show it all the way. Don’t give teasers. :P

I don’t mind girls dressing as slutty as they want. It is easy to ignore them. But if they are sitting next to you or in front of you (since you need to help her), it gets pretty challenging to ignore. And that crucifix necklace that she was wearing. It was dangling in the middle of her boobs! It is as if she is giving Jesus a sneak peek of her boobs: Peek-a-boo, Jesus!

No wonder men can’t seem to take their eyes of from a girl’s cleavage. As a straight girl, I find it pretty distracting and can’t take my eyes away from it too (especially if she is in front of me or sitting beside me). I did look away after getting bored. Couldn’t ignore the fact that her tits kept on “bouncing” when she moves. The crucifix kept on blinking because it is made by zircon. It is a perfect way to draw attention to your boobs, right? :)

But then again, when men stares at girls’ cleavage, the girls usually get mad and start calling him a pervert. So ironic. If you don’t want people to look then wear a decent shirt. Isn’t that common sense? Why show it off if you don’t want people to look? What lah you!